sad

[Krys]

sorry Maz, didnt get you

[mazceline]

sorry Maz, didnt get you

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I mean you guys dont judge, so i can be me

[Krys]

ah okie guess its the same with you guys and me.

[mazceline]

absolutley x

[Krys]

damn freakin pissed at what i did to myself yesterday. shouldn't have used the blade when i was sleepy...

[mazceline]

what what what what what

[Krys]

dont worry Maz, i didnt attempted suicide for your information. i was just cutting some paper and the blade went jab into my hand. thats all.

[mazceline]

few, i was concerned there do you like my hero aviator

[Krys]

who is your hero aviator?

[mazceline]

my little man

[Krys]

ah... he is cute

[mazceline]

like his mom

[Krys]

i havent seen your pic, so i wouldnt know

[mazceline]

put longer blonde hair on him and thats me

[Krys]

got any pic of you that you can show me?

[Célinefull]

for god sake, when am I gonna be around to see the dang picture??!

[mazceline]

now

[Krys]

where?

[Célinefull]

I didn't see it again, can you like pm it to me or something?

[Krys]

ooopsie. saw it last night Edited April 30, 2006 at 05:54 AM by lamourpourCeline

[Célinefull]

I CAN SEE HIM! He's so cute Maz

[mazceline]

Watched one of my favourite films on tv last night, a league of there own, with celines friend in it rosie, well i cry everytime i watch that film its great i love Geena D she is one hot older women, anyone else like the film

[mazceline]

God im usually possitive, but today i feel like the ground should swollow me up, cant take much more, how much more am i expected to take, go to work smile, come home smile, well just maybe i dont want to, but if i dont keep smiling ill be in the nut house again,

 

I want to cry, but people i know , know me as big hard maz, nothing can hurt her, well how wrong is every one i know, i guess sometimes talking about things , like i recently have, brings back all the memories i want to forget, that drinking helps me forget, now ive stopped what will take that pain away, maybe ill never be able to stop, incase, i loose it again, too confused.

 

maybe after a sleep, then work ill have lost this feeling

Edited April 30, 2006 at 02:09 PM by mazceline

[celinedionsfan]

Dear Marie ...

 

There is light in this darkness ... you might not be able to see it right now ... but it is there ... perhaps the smallest flicker .... but the flame has not gone out and you will get through this ... one moment at a time ... one breath at a time ... and I know that these are only words ... but please know that you are so much stronger than you think ...

 

Love,

Patty

Edited April 30, 2006 at 11:48 PM by celinedionsfan

[1Celine12]

I know I say this all the time, but I think you should read my topic called The World By Brad Paisley Lyrics and you will feel better after reading it.

[Krys]

God im usually possitive, but today i feel like the ground should swollow me up, cant take much more, how much more am i expected to take, go to work smile, come home smile, well just maybe i dont want to, but if i dont keep smiling ill be in the nut house again,

 

I want to cry, but people i know , know me as big hard maz, nothing can hurt her, well how wrong is every one i know, i guess sometimes talking about things , like i recently have, brings back all the memories i want to forget, that drinking helps me forget, now ive stopped what will take that pain away, maybe ill never be able to stop, incase, i loose it again, too confused.

 

maybe after a sleep, then work ill have lost this feeling

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yo Maz. cry out loud! it certainly does make you feel better. and NO DRINKING MAZ!

[celinedionsfan]

God im usually possitive, but today i feel like the ground should swollow me up, cant take much more, how much more am i expected to take, go to work smile, come home smile, well just maybe i dont want to, but if i dont keep smiling ill be in the nut house again,

 

I want to cry, but people i know , know me as big hard maz, nothing can hurt her, well how wrong is every one i know, i guess sometimes talking about things , like i recently have, brings back all the memories i want to forget, that drinking helps me forget, now ive stopped what will take that pain away, maybe ill never be able to stop, incase, i loose it again, too confused.

 

maybe after a sleep, then work ill have lost this feeling

<{POST_SNAPBACK}>

 

Sometimes when I read your words I can hear the sadness ... the loneliness ... the pain ... the hopeless ... I want to take you to a place where you can feel safe ... hold you until you have no more tears left to cry ... until there is no more pain ... no more fear ... but I can't ... and I feel so helpless because all I can give you are just words on a page and that's not enough ...

[Krys]

i feel like barging right over to the UK and shake Maz into reality

[Célinefull]

awh Maz..I feel for you sweetie, you know what my policy is though, it's NEVER the right thing to keep it inside you, even if you think it is, because those feelings make you drink, the only way to let them go is to get them out there.

[mazceline]

Thanks x