sad

[Salla]

ok, maybe not a novel, but still.

[mazceline]

I used to be sad and depressed all the time. I lost people I loved dearly, friends left me, and everything seemed to happen one thing after another. I missed everyone, I was alone and lonely. I felt like I wasn't worth anything, I didn't see a future for myself.

 

When I found out, that I might have ovarian cancer something clicked and I understood, that all the things and people, that have made me sad or depressed or hurt me in some way in the past ARE indeed in the past and the only way I can get over the sadness in my life was to forgive the people who have hurt me, keep the memories of those who are gone and just keep thinking positive.

 

I could've gotten even more depressed. I could've said that I'm 21, I might have cancer, I will never have biological children and because of all that life's not worth living. But instead I somehow found the strenght to fight all the negativity and turned all the bad things around. I was telling myself, that I'm 21, I'm YOUNG, it helps me get better. I might have cancer, but it can be treated and it'll make me a stronger person in the end. And the one thing, that really hit me hard was the fact, that I will never be able to have biological children, but then I realized, that in the world, there are so many children, who I can give my love and who are in need of a family. So in the end, it all turns out fine. And I wish, that even after all this is over, I can still keep on thinking positive. I know it'll be hard, but I just have to remind myself, that life could be A LOT worse.

 

Sorry for writing a novel.

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god Salla you sound such a very strong person, with all perspectives in life in order, you may not be able to have a child but you will be able to love a child and give a child a chance and become that childs mother, and the cancer thing ive just gone through it with my mum and she got strengh from somewhere she did not sit and cry she got strong and she has beaten it

 

thanks for writing that, it shows people like my self who suffers with depression that, i need to get up, i need to carry on....

[Salla]

I've never seen myself as a strong person, but the past month has shown me, that I can get through a lot of crap. And apparently it took a possibilty of a life threathening disease to make me realize, that life is worth living. If all this wouldn't have happened I'd still be the same depressed little girl, who is mad at the world for making her suffer. Sure I still have my moments of sadness and life just really feels unfair at times.

 

And to tell you the truth I used to complain about my closest friends. I never thought I had good friends, friends who'd be there for me if something bad happened and I was so wrong. I had/still have a big support group. They were all there for me when I needed them most. Also my family, my mom, my brother, my sister-in-law, even my little nephews and my newborn niece have been giving me the strenght to carry on and they've kept the smile on my face. (My brother tells the worst jokes ever ) All my relatives have been living through this with me. One of the people who has been an inspiration to me is my cousin, who has MS(which to me sounds like a slow death) and she's the most positive person in the world. Also my aunt who has breast cancer herself, she calls me almost everyday to just chat about things and share her experiences. We have 53 years in between us, but as we both can relate to what the other person is going through, it's been good to talk to her. I guess what I wanted to say with this was, that you should try to reach out to people, I know it's not easy, but you'd be surprised of how many people there are in the world who really truly care. At least I was.

 

And thank god for music and Céline!

[nano]

Salla, you made me cry. I hope that none of my clients comes in..

[Krys]

And thank god for music and Céline! 

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AMEN, sister!

[Salla]

Salla, you made me cry. I hope that none of my clients comes in..     

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aw, sowwy! :dontbesad:

 

And thank god for music and Céline! 

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AMEN, sister!

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I have no idea what I would've done without music!

[Krys]

And thank god for music and Céline! 

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AMEN, sister!

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I have no idea what I would've done without music!

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i know i wont be able to go through a week without music at all

Edited September 27, 2006 at 12:20 PM by lamourpourCeline

[nano]

Salla, you made me cry. I hope that none of my clients comes in..     

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aw, sowwy! :dontbesad:

 

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don't be sorry about that..I just bursted into tears but in a good way..you know.

[nano]

And thank god for music and Céline! 

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AMEN, sister!

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I have no idea what I would've done without music!

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i know i wont be able to go through a week without music at all

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Music is life. Music is love. Music is everything.

[Krys]

And thank god for music and Céline! 

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AMEN, sister!

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I have no idea what I would've done without music!

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i know i wont be able to go through a week without music at all

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Music is life. Music is love. Music is everything.

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Music is communication!

[Salla]

And thank god for music and Céline! 

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AMEN, sister!

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I have no idea what I would've done without music!

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i know i wont be able to go through a week without music at all

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I'm not able to go through a day without music! lol

 

 

Salla, you made me cry. I hope that none of my clients comes in..     

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aw, sowwy! :dontbesad:

 

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don't be sorry about that..I just bursted into tears but in a good way..you know.

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aw. ok.

[nano]

And thank god for music and Céline! 

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AMEN, sister!

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I have no idea what I would've done without music!

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i know i wont be able to go through a week without music at all

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Music is life. Music is love. Music is everything.

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Music is communication!

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yep..and that too.

[nano]

aw. ok.

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Edited September 27, 2006 at 12:25 PM by nano

[paradox]

Celine back smile to my face, yesterday i was sad, today i'm soo happy

[mazceline]

my friends say celine is depressing but she is quite the opposite, she has saved be from many situation

 

 

lets hear it for the queen of music

 

 

CELINE

[kathyc25]

[celinedionsfan]

Once again ... I am overwhelmed by sadness and emptiness ... struggling to find reasons to care ... to want to continue this journey ...

[mazceline]

how are you this week?

[mazceline]

ive just started on prozac again to lift me up, i hope it works,

[mazceline]

I am happy happy happy today....

[shakiria]

i have depression i know ive got to be strong for my kids and think positive for the future i feel so alone lately yet im in a relationship. i want to be happy i want to be loved and by meeting somone who cares about me my future seems ok

 

thanks maz for being you

 

luv shak xxx

[celinedionsfan]

One breath at a time ... one moment at a time ... for now focus on those most precious and beautiful gifts that that you have been given: your children. Take a deep breath and know that you are loved and that you have created life ...

[shakiria]

thankyou for your kind words i love my children to bits i know i will always have them if i am im ever alone i must be strong for their sakes

[mazceline]

My son is the only thing that helped me through depression, he was my reason for being, then i came here found so many wonderful people with a hole different kind of life, problems, sadness, and knew i was not alone,

 

good friends here

 

 

keep ya from getting , SAD

[shakiria]

knowing those others care about me stops me from getting sad

[mazceline]

thats how it should be....

[shakiria]

i just want to be in love then i wont feel so sad i would fel loved instead knowing soone loved me for who i am

[celinedionsfan]

Honey ... being in love and being loved is not what will take away your sadness ... other people cannot give you happiness ... that is something you must find within yourself ...

[paradox]

I cant be sad when i have Pat

[celinedionsfan]

I cant be sad when i have Pat 

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Thank you ...