Help ...:(

[triniguy]

I wrote Celine Several times at TeamCeline but got letters saying shes busy

I've been writing Celine for 15 years come this March and never heard from her. They were usually Thank you Letters from TeamCeline but this last letter was different.....and no reply from Celine but its ok.

I would like to share my letter with you guys.....

Hope you guys see what Celine Means to me

Please don't laugh at me , I'm still going through a rough time and please forgive my english.

 

 

My Dearest Celine

i know you may not read this or reply but i just want to tell you how thankful I am to have u in my life.

Life is so hard at times but u help me through. I thank God for you everyday.

I've written you many times before but i never get a reply but i pray and trust that you get them.

The last time i wrote you was via Team Celine and i didnt have the cash to renew my membership and my account was deactivated, and i got no reply.

 

Celine my Dear , your music and upbeat personality helps me carry on...

I admire and look up to u so much , You are all i have in this life now.

I wish i had my family, i see how happy you are with your wonderful family and im so happy that u experience that feeling, i did once. You Deserve it.

 

Being Gay isnt what i asked for or chose but its definitely a curse.

i know its weird getting mail like this but you wont believe I have no one else to turn to.

Its been months now since my family found out I'm gay and ever since no one talks to me.

My friends even left me, as being gay is still considered Taboo in the Caribbean.

 

I wonder whats the point to life now and i can't help but feel like im lost.

My dreams and goals now pointless as i have noone to share my happiness with.

Now my only dream is to see you ,but i know that may never happen, i know that would make me happy but i know happiness isnt something for me.

 

My dad once promised me that he would take me to see u perform and now im lucky if he says "HI" to me, so i know i would never get to see u.

Now I got kicked out and dont even have a place to call a home anymore.

 

My family is highly religious and they try to convince me that im evil and God hates me .

Celine, why is life so hard? why did God make me gay? im a good boy, i mean well ,i'm always reaching out to people in need, I give all i have even thought it may not be much.

My dad even stopped funding my education so im no longer in school , now noone wants to hire me without a college degree.

 

The most hurtful thing happened on Christmas morning, my sisters , my brother,mom ,dad and the rest of my family all opened their gifts , all hugging eachother and tearful and noone bought me anything ..i had to sit there and look at everyone open gifts and nothing for me...not even a "merry Christmas Mike"

that hurt so much .

i don't want the fancy gifts but at least a Hug,even a christmas card would make me smile..i started to cry and everyone got angry at me.

 

Well Celine i know you may never read this but thanks for being there for me,

just know that you have a Devoted fan who thinks the world of you, respect and adore u more than anything else in his life

 

I dont know what may happen to me tomorrow but knowing that i had your music to ease the pain was enough, more than i could wish for.

Celine you are all i have in this life , thanks for making me smile, always being there when i needed you the most.

Your music speaks to me and gives me hope for a new day

 

Im looking forward to buying your new cd, YAY! i finally got some money today, so im going to buy it this week.

Im so excited just thinking about it, I know its familiar songs but its still a new Celine cd and experience to me.

I even begged the guy at the music store to keep the cd for me not to sell it , he laughed!

 

Love u Celine,

God bless u and

thanks again for adding meaning to my life

 

It would mean alot if i can hear from you,please Celine i need to know you are there

 

 

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Thanks for your time Friends..

My xmas Wish this year was an autograph from Celine But my letter came back empty.

But I know Celine is Busy and i'm sure i'll get one someday

Sorry for the long message

 

Much Love and Thanks My Friends

Mikey~

[Jacqui]

Hi Mike!

Well, I'm not Celine, and I'm sure she'd find something much better to say than I can, but I'm really sorry to hear about what you're going through.

I've never understood why people are so judgmental based on sexuality. Maybe, like some people say, because it's the last socially acceptable form of prejudice? People don't understand so they get scared? Or, it's all in the name of Religion. I don't get that either...I'm a Christian, but I don't believe we should treat gays any differently to how we'd treat any other human being. And for some reason, I just can't picture Jesus doing that either...a lot of people would say I'm wrong, but like you said, it's not a choice you've made. It's just the way you are. And it seems cruel that God would create someone just to condemn them for something they have no control over.

Maybe that's not comforting...my point was meant to be that not everyone judges!!! If you keep searching, maybe you can find some new friends, a place you feel comfortable, with people who accept you for who you are!

[triniguy]

Hi Mike!

Well, I'm not Celine, and I'm sure she'd find something much better to say than I can, but I'm really sorry to hear about what you're going through.

I've never understood why people are so judgmental based on sexuality. Maybe, like some people say, because it's the last socially acceptable form of prejudice? People don't understand so they get scared? Or, it's all in the name of Religion. I don't get that either...I'm a Christian, but I don't believe we should treat gays any differently to how we'd treat any other human being. And for some reason, I just can't picture Jesus doing that either...a lot of people would say I'm wrong, but like you said, it's not a choice you've made. It's just the way you are. And it seems cruel that God would create someone just to condemn them for something they have no control over.

Maybe that's not comforting...my point was meant to be that not everyone judges!!! If you keep searching, maybe you can find some new friends, a place you feel comfortable, with people who accept you for who you are!

 

 

Thanks so much for your comment

Its nice to know someone understands

 

:lots of love

Mikey~

[SensationalCeline]

Mike,

 

Like so many before you have come here for guidance, there is one thing you should know.....the people here on this forum are your family. Even though we may not know you personally, we know you. I really do not understand why people treat homosexuals any differently than heterosexuals. You are a human being and have feelings as well as anyone else and just like them you deserve to be happy. Even though you have Celine, I hope that you have found someone that makes you happy. Like you said, you had no control over it, it just happened and they can't force you to change who you are. People should accept you the way that you are. Everyone has some kind of impact that they are supposed to make in this world and you are here for a reason, so whether or not they accept you for who you are or not, just know that there are people out there that do and they adore you for it. Also, you were brave enought to put on here what you were going through and some people might read this and know that they aren't alone so that's a good thing also. I don't believe that what they did was right and I think that it was downright mean and awful. There is going to be brighter and better days, you just have to continue to have faith in God and yourself and things will get better. I'll be praying for you my friend.

Much love and warm wishes for the New Year.

[adoreceline]

Dear Mike,

I am crying....your letter is meaningful and thoughtful. I love every line. I am not religious and I don't believe in God but I'm sure he loves you and does not judge you and I believe that in the end we all are equal. To me it's the underneath what counts and I am sure you are a beautiful person and I feel so sorry for you. My thoughts are with you and I hope for you to have a brighter new year. I wish you the best. I hug and kiss you...love, nicole

[Macaronie]

I don't want to be rude and I get where you coming from, but saying being gay is a curse is insulting for other gays as well, don't you think??

[triniguy]

I don't want to be rude and I get where you coming from, but saying being gay is a curse is insulting for other gays as well, don't you think??

 

 

To Macaronie... I didnt mean to offend anyone especially as im gay myself.

But i think you misunderstood my words.

 

when I say being Gay is a curse i mean that its a struggle..Something that caused me pain or hurt or even bad luck, something i have no control over.

 

Curse (meaning) - A source or cause of misfortune

 

 

I believe that any gay out there that was discriminated against or had a hard time dealing with being gay and having no place to live for months would agree that its a curse.

 

but again sorry i didnt mean to upset you .

 

 

My Dearest Nicole ,SensationalCeline and Jacqui, Thanks you for your caring nature.

I'm Glad that I have friends here that understands. I feel so much better after reading your messages. its very comforting

[Macaronie]

Oh I ain't upset, just wondering what you meant with that.

[nrcda88]

That's such an emotional and moving letter triniguy . I'm really sorry to read what you've been going through especially at this time of year. No one should be treated like that by family but that's the sad reality of the world today.

I do hope things start changing for the better in your life and that one day you'll get a reply from Celine.

[triniguy]

That's such an emotional and moving letter triniguy . I'm really sorry to read what you've been going through especially at this time of year. No one should be treated like that by family but that's the sad reality of the world today.

I do hope things start changing for the better in your life and that one day you'll get a reply from Celine.

 

 

Thanks so much for your uplifting comment.

 

I really do appreciate it

[Terre]

Stories like yours always make me upset. I'll never be able to understand how people can be so cruel. Nobody deserves to be treated like that! There's absolutely nothing wrong with you, no matter what your family says. I hope you'll find people who accept you as you are! Don't lose hope!

[triniguy]

Stories like yours always make me upset. I'll never be able to understand how people can be so cruel. Nobody deserves to be treated like that! There's absolutely nothing wrong with you, no matter what your family says. I hope you'll find people who accept you as you are! Don't lose hope!

 

 

Thanks Alot for you response.... Celine and her fans are really a blessing

[Davey84]

Hey Mikey,

 

I am sorry to hear you've got it real rough at home, but I think you're seeing it the wrong way... I totally agree with Jeroen, saying being gay is a curse, is a big insult for gays and lesbians. Even though you see it as a real bad thing (because your family does), you should embrace it, because otherwise it will kill you. Like you said, you didn't ask for it, neither did I or any other gay. The perspective of other people should change; being gay isn't wrong, thinking it is evil is wrong! If your family is really so aweful to you, maybe you should think about moving away and maybe even break with them... it would be really hard, but you should think about yourself!

 

good luck!

[Lian]

Wow, I don't even know what to say, but I got tears all over my face right now. I want to wish you all the best and a lot of strength to go through all this.

 

I'm not a christian but I do believe in (a) God, and I believe that whatever this God does, it has a reason. Maybe this reason isn't clear to you right now, but I really hope you will find it out in the future.

 

And by the way, I think it's beautiful how you can express yourself, there aren't many people who can't talk about their feelings this way.

 

a big hug! *hugs*

[triniguy]

Hey Everyone .

When I wrote that Letter to Celine , I was really Sad, i just wrote from my Heart my feelings.

So I Must Apologize for my statement about being gay is a curse.

Sorry if anyone was offended by my statement.

I would never offend anyone...it's not my nature.

I really do feel awful for my words, i truly didnt mean it the way that it sounded.

 

What I was trying to say , was how good things were before my parents found out and the way i was treated after. I am the same person but not to my parents .

I grew up in a country where being gay is considered taboo , caused by some evil.

That's where the word curse came from.

I dont believe i'm evil and i know being gay is natural.

My Country is getting better but the old ways of thinking flows still.

 

I am happy with who I am , i just wish my parents would love me.

I believe being gay changed my outlook on life and the way that i think.

I'm thankful for who i am.

 

In caribbean countries , gays are often killed ,

my country and especially Jamaica are known for attacking gays. Caribbean artists even sing songs about killing gays. I'm happy with myself but I won't be able to make it known.

 

So please Forgive my statement ,

I really didn't mean anything by it.

 

Thanks Celine Fans and Friends

[Cheerfuljane]

You shouldn't have to apologize !!! YOU feel like it is a curse. It's YOUR personal feeling. You have that right. If others feel offended by your own personal feelings then they have issues they need to deal with !!! Don't feel bad.

 

That was a very touching letter. I'm sure if Celine read it she would be in tears.

 

May I ask you how old you are?

It sounds like your family are scared to be associated with you because others in the community will frown upon them or even hurt them. That's extremely selfish.

You don't need them. You have to create your own life. Go where YOU are happy. Don't let others dictate how you feel.

Be proud of who you are. You're a good, decent human being !! THAT is what counts.

I can't imagine what it must be like to be treated like that by your own family. Hopefully in time they will change their ways.

[triniguy]

You shouldn't have to apologize !!! YOU feel like it is a curse. It's YOUR personal feeling. You have that right. If others feel offended by your own personal feelings then they have issues they need to deal with !!! Don't feel bad.

 

That was a very touching letter. I'm sure if Celine read it she would be in tears.

 

May I ask you how old you are?

It sounds like your family are scared to be associated with you because others in the community will frown upon them or even hurt them. That's extremely selfish.

You don't need them. You have to create your own life. Go where YOU are happy. Don't let others dictate how you feel.

Be proud of who you are. You're a good, decent human being !! THAT is what counts.

I can't imagine what it must be like to be treated like that by your own family. Hopefully in time they will change their ways.

 

 

I think your points are valid , and i know my parents will die of embarrassment if people found out.

Thanks for your support

And thanks so much more for understanding what I was trying to say in my letter.