Okay... I'm updating my craziness:
I have noticed I do this thing, and now that I've noticed ot drives me insane but I cant stop... this is going to be hard to explain...
It's like if you're talking to someone, or you have a word in your head, and theres a thing... usually I use a big window, or my wardrobe or a wall with patterns on it, or something, and if i think about the word or sometimes if I just dont have anything to do I write the word in the window or on my wardrobe, in my mind. But I have to shape all the letters to fit the entire wardrobe or window, and I have to make sure that it has an even amount of numbers in each section of the window.
It's been driving me insane recently, and I dont know how to stop it.
Another weird thing is.... I HATE collar bones! it makes me feel disgusting just writing it! It's the only part of Celine that I hate and that I would change about her if I could... she's skinny, therefore has giant collar bones!! I can't come to terms with the fact that I have them. I can't touch them or look at them and when I think about the fact that I have them it makes me want to touch them, but I cant because they're so disgusting! And my brother walks around hitting his collar bones with his knuckles to annoy me and it actually makes me feel sick!!
Also, I can't do the same thing in the same place for too long or I feel like I'll explode! Like if I'm filing my nails, I have to do them all and then go around and do them all again until they are the length that I want, I cant just do them all short at once, because if I do one finger for too long It feels like my stomach will jump out!!
Yuck!
And the last one I can think of right now, when I'm in a moving car, you can guarantee it will happen at least once everytime I get into one, I always think that the car door isn't locked, and that I could just reach up and open it and I will fall out. BUt then I get scared because when I think about things I inadvertadly do them, and I know I do, so I always get scared that I'm going to just open the door while we're driving, just because I've thought about it!
:/