The most inspirational person in my life

[celines_girl]

She came to my school about 3 years ago. She told us that first day that we had cancer but didn't want to let it get her down. She was amazing and taught me alot about english. I even started to enjoy to write. She was also my oral interp. coach. I can remember walking into her room one time and barely being abel to read because she was wearing her head band instead of the wig. At the end of my junior year she had some hair growing back. It must have gotten worst over the summer. She still looked good though when she came back for the begining of my senior year. She helped with oral interp again and I enjoyed practicing my pieces with her. She always had the best ideas. Slowly she got sicker and decided to quite in the middle of the year around Dec. Around the middle of Nov. she got really sick and went to the hospital. She never returned to school after that but still worked on making plans and grading papers for awhile. I guess some time in Dec. she decided to go back to her home.

 

She died on New Years Eve morning. She didn't even get to see 2006. I will miss her tremoundsly and never forget her.

 

I found out at 3pm on New Years Eve and was shocked. I barely wanted to know but I had to go home. I of course cried a bit but not alot then. I still could not believe it.

 

Her funeral was today. Our school didn't even let out which I found completely disgraceful. I still went to the funeral anyways. I was so emotional it took me about 5 minutes before I stopped sobbing and I continued to cry throughout the whole service. I was shocked to see how many people she has influenced in her life. They could not even have the service in the church it was held in a different schools gym, where they did let out school.

 

She was a poet and writer. Her is are some example of her works.Mrs. Varilek

 

JUST FOR A DAY

Carol Varilek

 

I want to lie in the exact center of our bed

and stretching out come in contact with nothing

but the cool, clean sheets.

I want to hear the silence of the empty house settle around me

as the door closes on the last retreating heel.

I want to let my mind drift out and park itself

somewhere on the closet shelf.

I want to selfishly sleep

Just for today.

 

BALING WIRE AND TWINE

Carol Varilek

 

After eighteen years

our marriage has become a sort of baling wire and twine project

pieced and patched together to handle the crises

but our vision of the future hazy.

 

I get so angry at you sometimes;

your constant smiling,

your "it will rain soon" attitude.

I get tired of sweat and grease and manure--

of being late to every social event,

and the dirt still under your fingernails.

I'm sick of wading through piles of repair bills,

aerial photos, and plastic bags of soil samples

to find my typewriter on "our" desk.

 

But then there's that rare Saturday night,

You in clean Levis, the still dark blue ones,

your Sunday lizard-skin boots,

black Stetson, brim bent just so,

you, trim in a bold-striped western shirt, dancing

as some middle-aged farmer turned singer for a night

whines out an old cheatin' song--

 

I watch other women watching you, and...

think.

 

http://www.midstatesd.net/~varitom/images/scan0002.jpg

She is the 2nd one in from the left.

 

May she be happy now. I will always remember her.

 

Laura

[Lawna]

i'm sorry to hear...at least she is in a better place now, with no suffereing

[Krys]

im so sorry at least she is in a better place now.

 

you'll see her again, im sure.

Edited January 4, 2006 at 06:57 AM by lamourpourCeline

[Clari]

I'm sorry to hear that. She wouldn't want you to be sad.

[Salla]

I'm so sorry to hear that!

[1Celine12]

I am sorry to hear that. Maybe you should listen to your favourite Céline song and that will make you feel better. I know I feel better every time I listen to Céline's music. Just a thought.

[Shonah]

I am so sorry, truly i am. While i was reading your post i started crying, literally, and the hairs on my arms stood at end because i know how you feel. I am truly sorry to hear about the loss of the most inspirational person in your life.

 

I read her poems and they are amazing she really had talent.

 

Just think someday you'll be together again, and that your tears are not a farewell but a goodbye to her until the day comes again where you will be reunited with her. God has taken her because he needed her.

 

I hope that you'll find so sort of comfort, and the strength to carry on as the years go by and the pain either deepens or gets easier to bear. I pray that you'll only remember all the good times you shared together.

 

I'm really sorry ...

[rogerionovais]

Laura, I feel your loss... She was a very inspirational person, i'm sure. All I can say to you is that I hope you get some comfort, remembering her... Remembering all those special moments that you'll never forget. you have to be strong. Just think of her as a great friend that meant a lot in your life...

 

best wishes,

 

Rogério.

 

[Ania]

I'm so sorry to hear that. I hope you're holding up somehow...

[raluca]

i'm so sorry to hear that but think that she has never left you...even if you can't see her that doesn't mean she's not there...she will always be at your side..guiding you to your dreams Edited January 5, 2006 at 11:13 PM by raluca

[celines_girl]

Thanks so much for the responses. It has been intresting this week. I just keep thinking about her and everyday I have been speaking about her to someone. She was amazing.

 

I didn't even expect to get any reponse to this topic, but its great. I love what you all had to say.

 

Yes I have been replaying alot of moments in my head.

 

I am trying to remember the last time I seen and talked to her and I don't know right now.

 

Yesterday I went into her room and it was bare all of the pictures were gone, but there was still baskets and books and a sign that sayed "Mrs. Varilek's Top Ten." It was very strange to go in there that way.

 

Thanks again so much.

[Belle Céline]

I lost my mom 3 years ago to cancer,I know how you feel,its hard to loose someone who is inspirational,my mom was the greatest person in my life and i miss her terribly just like you do your friend.

[Adam868]

I'm so sorry...PM me if you wanna talk. Your in my thoughts and prayers.

[HelenCeline27]

i am so sorry for your lost

keep the faith

[1Celine12]

I have lost a lot of people in my life, but I know that they are in a better place right now and this teacher is in a better place with all their friends and relatives hugging them and she is looking down on her students that she has inspired.

[celines_girl]

Thanks alot.

 

I still think of her almost day. Since her death I have learned so many more things about her.

 

We are going to dedicate a part in the school to her and also we are inviting her family to our pops concert and dedicating "Seasons of Love" from Rent to her.

To bad i can't be there that day. I will be in Vegas.

[1Celine12]

Maybe someone will tell you what went on when you get back from the most important trip in your life as a fan of Céline. What song from Céline's show are you gonna dedicate to your teacher?

[vivezpouraimer]

"Seasons of Love" seems like a near-perfect song to dedicate to her. She has an air of love around her in that picture -- I can only imagine how amazing she was in person. You were blessed to have known her.

 

She seems like the kind that will stay in your heart for years and years to come...and always seems to make you smile. hehe.

 

Be strong.

Edited March 27, 2006 at 03:07 AM by vivezpouraimer

[Celine's Wife]

I'm sorry hun

[celines_girl]

Actually this happened back in January so it is not that new anymore. I don't know why it got drug out again.

 

Oh well. I am still glad people care.

[Krys]

you know we love you!

[1Celine12]

Exactly. Old topics get drug out all the time around here. That's why we need to keep things fresh.

[HelenCeline27]

in just so in love with this forum

[1Celine12]

We all are.

[HelenCeline27]

[mazceline]

Yes i know i always think that when we die we move to heaven and end up with the people we lost and start a new life i believe that and think that if i stop believing that then what is the point of life. I want to meet up with my family and friends ive lost one day.

 

 

I believe there watching over us and i will believe that till the day i die

[AdrianaCarvalho]

I´m sorry...

[mazceline]

I´m sorry...

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whats that mean , we believe what we believe it dont hurt no one